Saturday, December 31, 2011

oh my

i've been celebrated old n new at s3s for three years, and i'm damn miss it right now. guess they are gathering now and having performance outside the field. tonight, all i want for my new year's eve is enjoying firework at xiangshanshi. nothing else :(

2011

i've rewind. this is my most perfect day in 2011
05062011


i know i looks stupid, but this is my happy face.
idk how to describe. just wait till i've found the word then i'll type it.

have a great old n new everyone :)

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

happy puppy x)

stop it. hahaha. i mean to make a surprise to a friend of mine but she got a feeling of it. she keep asking me that makes me can't hold it anymore. really can't!!! hahaha.

well, stop the rubishing.

i'm otw home on 15th jan and will be arrive at medan 16thjan morning. <3
i r e a l l y w a i t f o r i t t t t !

regard me as the stupid. i've bought a flight at first. but because of the early class, feel so pity for the ticket if i just go back for several days, so i move it to june. yes, i've really change the date of my flight. i was so dissapointed and galao for my decision to not going home that time. i think about it night and day. but i'm lucky ! my sis got her fixed graduation ceremony day, it's on my holiday. mommy call me and demand me to buy a new ticket home. feel so sengok bought the same flight for twice, but i'm happy like a little puppy that time. really really excited to go home!!!

19days to go :) :) x)

bang

everytime i freely laugh with teeth shows up, my eyes will lefted a line and my face will turn into a balloon. dislike that. ugh. should i try to learn how to smile infront of the mirror? :x



i bought a fake straight bang today. i'm confused should i cut it straight back but in other side, i've long it for 4 months. feel regret to cut it in a minute. ~~~




Monday, December 26, 2011

a year ago

just pick out last dec little trip for big bro graduation. at KL-Sg, a year ago when my hair is still long. thus for you who want to know how my big bro looks like, here he is. hahaha.





Sunday, December 25, 2011

christmas swag

to my family, my school friends, my yad friends, my wherever friends, and every stranger MERRY CHRISTMAS !!! :D i though my christmas will be completely wreck. fortunately just some not all, that sounds much better. anw my problem has been done. mom is your true bestfriend. no offense.
got dinner wt friends, have a great day guys! :)



Saturday, December 24, 2011

Z

it's not a good christmas eve.
this week have been too though, i really feel tired body n mind though some has been accomplished. new term is coming which means i should extend the dorm. the problem is it need to be booked and paid online before 27th. hey teacher i don't got any credit card how come? try to make one but it need my passport and my passport is now being process for visa on the embassy till 29th.
... i don't know wat to say again. how perfect it is if i consent moving to those apartment i always dream of. no need to get tired go here and there asking facing the annoying teacher to handle this sucks.

and for "YOU", you know how i always hope for moving, i just need one step to make it but it all ruined by your selfish. satisfied now lewd? know that i'm not a girl who can let off easily. i've talk to you pretty goodly at first but you return the suckest i ever felt to me. who do you think you are? never hope i will be as good to you as first. cause you've makes me feel disgusting. mind that.

night.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Yapong

after a month of exercising, finally yesterday the job is done. a simply indonesian dance performance at school new year gathering. my first time wearing kebaya, my sis kebaya exactly and i'm not satisfied cause i feel big :x









wat a superfluous.
visa, dorm, gaining weight, pimples growing up, blacker panda eyes makes me feel like i'm seeing my corpse in the mirror. it's too bad. aaaA!
really wish i'm moving to 16th jan 2012 9.00am.
when i'll be wt my huge new year boon :) :) :)

Sunday, December 18, 2011

weekend




find a new veggie resto wth more choice and i eat much this weekend.(maybe) i admit that i'm gaining w*ight. suppose i'm getting taller too to make it balance. talking rubish ***

Friday, December 16, 2011

hibernate



hola !
it has been period since he didn't show up. exactly i didn't show him up. haha.
idk what have i been doing this lately. feeling so busy but unproductive. i dislike dislike winter! the weather is getting insane, i'm trembling everyday. somehow i feel like my sleeping time never get enough in winter. i've been on bed frm 10 to 7 but still spiritless. like a polar bear, maybe i need hibernate -x-


hug.hug.hug.share the warm
moon.night! :)

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

ball is round


august me - december me
round-er ? old-er ><

Sunday, December 11, 2011

aquarium

almost lost my phone at aquarium today. too excited enjoying jelly fish in the dark, careless me didn't zipped well my bag till i drop my phone somewhere. panic like insane running back through the escalator , but luckily it's a good person who picked up my phone. i got my phone back. feel blessed thanks God! x.x












learning: you need knowledge to make a good social relationship.

it's not about friendship that build in school. but it's about the network you get in public. must learn how to bring myself in society. and another experience, i found it's a pretty job to be a translator. people put believes in you and i feels satisfied wt it :D :D :D

Sunday, December 4, 2011

friends are like siblings

it's easy because i think it is easy, it's hard because i think it is hard

don't worried about how others judge you, they are not you
don't run, problems just try you to become wiser.
thankyou for bringing back my mood dude. :):):)

m i s s y o u !




Saturday, December 3, 2011

hello december




hello december and it's winter. the city is such a huge refridge. it's colder than the cold when i take a shower at s3s in early morning. it freeze me to the bone. not good.

anw, i envy ttmax for muketeers who are having dinner together right now at this second. i really wanna join you guys. really JEALOUS!!! aaaaaaaaaaaa x(

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

true

Dalam berteman, jangan terlalu melekat. Terlalu dekat tidak akan baik, terlalu jauh juga tidak akan baik. Yang paling baik biasa-biasa saja. #h.radcliffe

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

go the distance

life has been so tough this few days peeps.

1. i got trouble in seeking for an apartment.
sth fcuk makes my mind fuzzy: i'm still a foreigner that haven't know well how the citizens are. how if someone open the door at midnight? key musn't be only one, hence i got no one i can rely on here. i'm not homed!

2. culture shock
my friend cried when he arrive here at first. he's a man, that time i put a big ? how can he cry? but now i exactly understand how he feels like. that sucks.

3. i'm waver about which uni should i apply. again.

4. i'm homesick. and i got no reason for it.

5. last but not least, i'm feeling worried how if i can't find any jobs that is appropriate with the effort my parents give to me. briefly, i'm wasting their money uselessly if i can't make it. :(

yesterday i'm feeling mentally tired. i broke a spoon into pieces while having my lunch near the school. i take it as buang sial. go go away shuuh! suddenly i realize, i'm not a school girl anymore. though this reality is not as good as i ever imagine. but i must move forward. this is just the beginning. it's only the first 3 months! i can !
today is getting better. angel give us some presents again. he's truly angel! i really want to thanks GOD! he's just like our grandpa. aaa we're now planning what should we give for him. googling~


everything will be better for me and all the mankind.
bless me guys. amithofo O:)



smile :D



Sunday, November 27, 2011

i feel regret for canceling my jan flight. truly regret :(

Friday, November 25, 2011

bite to eat


Hello .

almost 1hour at kitchen and this is my lunch made by me. proud hohoho.
capcay - tahu- nui- mashed potato :9



i have no rice cooker so less carbo then i get hungry easily.
and this is wat i'm addicted to, cookies <3






fat yes. but it's cute!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

despise

dear blog, i really got heated today. extremely heated !

do you ever think, why should you born as an INDONESIAN??

sometimes i felt sucks with it. let me tell you the truth behind the great wall. no, exactly the truth i found behind the world. i'm having a language class here, so i got friends wt various nationality. korean, japanese, spain, italy, laos, thailand etc. almost 3months i stay here, there somehow i know how do the world see my country. no matter how ugly you are, no matter how stupid you are, no matter how crouched you are, as long as you came from a famous country, people will look high at you here. they will treat you just like you are a star. you may looks like any popular asian people, but once you said " i'm indonesian " oh hell 70% of them won't be excited wt you like first. it was easily found by their expression and eye. i feel like that kind of people see you as nothing, or they will good to you just for some purpose. but i don't say everyone is like that. there are still people who didn't care where you came from or who are you. i love them, i always see them as angels. and others? you know what. idk how others indonesian feel like at here, but truly speaking as an indonesian i receive a despise. not only once, but times.

i've been patient for long, but this endurance has reach it's limits. just now i went to seek for an english class. yes, my english is getting worse and i need to make it better. but the result is i went back home with an extreme disapointment yet i just like freshly baked from oven with smokes above my head. the customer service is truly troublesome! i go there wt 1 indonesian and 1 foreigner just call x. you'll see how low you are in that shit person eyes by the way the shit talks to x and to us indonesian. not only me who felt it. i'm not telling lie but we both iindonesian extremely tempered! you won't know how annoying it feels like if you are not in our position. i don't assume that every chinese is like that. but that shit is the worst i ever met. i never get angry like this before. really.

we are all human, the same spesies. i don't understand why those people could be like that. i might still small, i might an indonesian, i might looks lame but i got feelings. i got my own honor. suddeny i realize, no matter how bad is my country, it won't screwed me up till this bad. though flood, dust, thieves everywhere but watever. i've spend a pampered 17years at there. they got a better manners. thats my hometown and i'm proud with it!

okay. take it as a childish post. you might say that i've over thinking. but i just want to explode it out. feel much better after writing. need to hit my bed. wake up tomorrow wt a brighter minds. goodnight blog.

Friday, November 18, 2011

buttermilk sky

i've bought a ticket back home but i've to roll it till the end of june. cause by a very early class on feb. extremely wretched. :'( moreover i'm hardly worried for my enroll test next may. doubt i want to move. hax.




it's weekend. i need a refreshing. i need an enlightment.


Thursday, November 17, 2011

jay

你好吗?how are you ?

墙上静止的钟是为谁停留
for who did the clock stop for?
是不是和我一样赖着不走
isn't just like me hanging on without moving
你说故事已经结束很久
you said the story has ended for long
我忘了向前走
i forget to move forward

我努力假装现在过得很好
i try to pretend i'm living very well
现在的你看来已不许要我
seems like you didn't need me anymore
也许在不同的时刻,还牵着你得手
perhaps at different paze, we're still holding hands

想知道你真得过得好吗?
wanna know, are you living well ?
没有我也许是种解脱
without me, maybe it's your consolation
将思念穿梭再宇宙数千光年
use this yearning, shuttle the universe thousands light of year
悄悄到你身边
quietly reach ur place

现在我使者习惯一个人过
now i've been used to living by myself
也许你已经开始新的生活
maybe you've start a new life
陪着我的叫做寂寞
it's emptiness accompanying me
陪你的是谁呢?
then who's taking my place?

。。。

messy

sth just didn't tasted good this recent. idk how to describe, but i'm having a little mental hit. strike. punch. smack watever it was. siiiiiiggghh. hush you messy! x.x


Wednesday, November 16, 2011