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Dalam berteman, jangan terlalu melekat. Terlalu dekat tidak akan baik, terlalu jauh juga tidak akan baik. Yang paling baik biasa-biasa saja. #h.radcliffe

go the distance

life has been so tough this few days peeps.

1. i got trouble in seeking for an apartment.

sth fcuk makes my mind fuzzy: i'm still a foreigner that haven't know well how the citizens are. how if someone open the door at midnight? key musn't be only one, hence i got no one i can rely on here. i'm not homed!

2. culture shock

my friend cried when he arrive here at first. he's a man, that time i put a big ? how can he cry? but now i exactly understand how he feels like. that sucks.

3. i'm waver about which uni should i apply. again.

4. i'm homesick. and i got no reason for it.

5. last but not least, i'm feeling worried how if i can't find any jobs that is appropriate with the effort my parents give to me. briefly, i'm wasting their money uselessly if i can't make it. :(

yesterday i'm feeling mentally tired. i broke a spoon into pieces while having my lunch near the school. i take it as buang sial. go go away shuuh! suddenly i realize, i'm not a school girl anymore. though this reality is not as good as i ever imagine. but i must move forward. this is just the beginning. it's only the first 3 months! i can !

today is getting better. angel give us some presents again. he's truly angel! i really want to thanks GOD! he's just like our grandpa. aaa we're now planning what should we give for him. googling~

everything will be better for me and all the mankind.

bless me guys. amithofo O:)

smile :D

i feel regret for canceling my jan flight. truly regret :(

bite to eat

Hello .

almost 1hour at kitchen and this is my lunch made by me. proud hohoho.

capcay - tahu- nui- mashed potato :9

i have no rice cooker so less carbo then i get hungry easily.

and this is wat i'm addicted to, cookies <3

fat yes. but it's cute!

despise

dear blog, i really got heated today. extremely heated !

do you ever think, why should you born as an INDONESIAN??

sometimes i felt sucks with it. let me tell you the truth behind the great wall. no, exactly the truth i found behind the world. i'm having a language class here, so i got friends wt various nationality. korean, japanese, spain, italy, laos, thailand etc. almost 3months i stay here, there somehow i know how do the world see my country. no matter how ugly you are, no matter how stupid you are, no matter how crouched you are, as long as you came from a famous country, people will look high at you here. they will treat you just like you are a star. you may looks like any popular asian people, but once you said " i'm indonesian " oh hell 70% of them won't be excited wt you like first. it was easily found by their expression and eye. i feel like that kind of people see you as nothing, or they will good to you just for some purpose. but i don't say everyone is like that. there are still people who didn't care where you came from or who are you. i love them, i always see them as angels. and others? you know what. idk how others indonesian feel like at here, but truly speaking as an indonesian i receive a despise. not only once, but times.

i've been patient for long, but this endurance has reach it's limits. just now i went to seek for an english class. yes, my english is getting worse and i need to make it better. but the result is i went back home with an extreme disapointment yet i just like freshly baked from oven with smokes above my head. the customer service is truly troublesome! i go there wt 1 indonesian and 1 foreigner just call x. you'll see how low you are in that shit person eyes by the way the shit talks to x and to us indonesian. not only me who felt it. i'm not telling lie but we both iindonesian extremely tempered! you won't know how annoying it feels like if you are not in our position. i don't assume that every chinese is like that. but that shit is the worst i ever met. i never get angry like this before. really.

we are all human, the same spesies. i don't understand why those people could be like that. i might still small, i might an indonesian, i might looks lame but i got feelings. i got my own honor. suddeny i realize, no matter how bad is my country, it won't screwed me up till this bad. though flood, dust, thieves everywhere but watever. i've spend a pampered 17years at there. they got a better manners. thats my hometown and i'm proud with it!

okay. take it as a childish post. you might say that i've over thinking. but i just want to explode it out. feel much better after writing. need to hit my bed. wake up tomorrow wt a brighter minds. goodnight blog.

buttermilk sky

i've bought a ticket back home but i've to roll it till the end of june. cause by a very early class on feb. extremely wretched. :'( moreover i'm hardly worried for my enroll test next may. doubt i want to move. hax.

it's weekend. i need a refreshing. i need an enlightment.

jay

你好吗？how are you ?

墙上静止的钟是为谁停留

for who did the clock stop for?

是不是和我一样赖着不走

isn't just like me hanging on without moving

你说故事已经结束很久

you said the story has ended for long

我忘了向前走

i forget to move forward

我努力假装现在过得很好

i try to pretend i'm living very well

现在的你看来已不许要我

seems like you didn't need me anymore

也许在不同的时刻，还牵着你得手

perhaps at different paze, we're still holding hands

想知道你真得过得好吗？

wanna know, are you living well ?

没有我也许是种解脱

without me, maybe it's your consolation

将思念穿梭再宇宙数千光年

use this yearning, shuttle the universe thousands light of year

悄悄到你身边

quietly reach ur place

现在我使者习惯一个人过

now i've been used to living by myself

也许你已经开始新的生活

maybe you've start a new life

陪着我的叫做寂寞

it's emptiness accompanying me

陪你的是谁呢？

then who's taking my place?

。。。

messy

sth just didn't tasted good this recent. idk how to describe, but i'm having a little mental hit. strike. punch. smack watever it was. siiiiiiggghh. hush you messy! x.x

skypiing

<3 <3 <3

i'm having a terrible mood today :'(

i don't wanna grow old

first of all, thankyou fukui makoto for giving the disney on ice tickets. it makes my weekend wonderful! aa angel! O:D

just one word for the show, amazing ! watching it together with many kids, no bother, cause we all love disney. seems like it's been so long since i didn't make any dream that i call silly last time. but not after today. we will never be too old for dreaming. imagine it, dream it, and work on it. walt disney accomplish his goal making dreams into reality. why don't we?

just few days ago i feel regret why don't i just take the hospitality major. it only spend my 3years for bachelor. but today i found out that i'm not taking the wrong way. i got a dream. i wanna accomplish my ambition. i want to be part of disneyland. it's okay if i spend 2more years for tourism management bach. or having a not high payment for my job. as long as i can feed myself and having a job that i've ever wanted: enchanted music everyday, cutie kiddy laughing with their parents, tourist with smiles in taking picture, being a team making dreams into reality, i will. X)

make it true. Buddha bless :)

weekend love people !

still young

it feels good to hear someone say " take care "

but it feels so much better to hear someone say " i will take care of you "

-anonymous-

how are you home ?

no place that comfortable. when will i step home?

lehaleha

exhausted friday. i'm reaching my new record last friday night. trying to learn how's night city life is. but i'm not turning bad. i'm still a good girl that drink milk on night. kekeke.

so here 静安寺。a tourist temple at city centre. ticket for entry, really. watever, at least i accomplish my goal. though not once in a week again, atleast i went to paipai last time :)

whops

went to a music building yesterday and i MISS MY PIANO SO MUCH!!

i'm not good at playing it, but i want to play it so badly badly badly. :'(

umbrella

feel that it's been so longlong time since i didn't step to temple. tomorrow my test is done, got plan to visit one tomorrow.

AA. i found this yesteday. it's tickling me. an old (not really) photo wt mom. hahaha. my mom hate fish eye but i love it :B

zonk!!