dear diary

i'm free!

start frm this afternoon, i'm totally free from the school stuffs and free from my own fidgety, will i?

just another sharing.

have you guys ever set a free time to think over what have we done? just get sth learn from the hard time, sweet time, all the time we ever go through.

when we were messed up and feeling blue, what we need is a WILL. try to be strong! i know it won't be easy just like typing it. but tell yourself you CAN. this is your life and don't let any chicky else thing ruined you around. believe yourself to become better YOU.

and when you feel high, keep the mood up. hence never forget, to gratified just simply say a little 'thankyou'. life is great, everything will be perfect just as you do when you enjoy it.

an emotional me, was really a big dreamer. nothing much better for me than to blank my sight and start daydreaming. it's all about the satisfied i get myself fly. but what more, not rare the facts stormed up my wings, open up my eyes and bring me to reality. REALITY that just get out from my wish that makes me feel sob. i've think over sth stuck my mind for times, nights, days, and every tick else. no one i could blame here. i've just thinking too much and finally, "i've made up my mind". Idk how many times have i stick that sentence on my mind. Braggart me. hahahaha. hopefully, it came real this time. let the past be a memory. no more stupid offense. and now i really need some busy list, not to think much about sth rubbish that makes up my pimples! ergh.

big dreamer, i want to make it a 'WAS' ;)

learn from the past, but never get trapped by it.

14042011

i'm having my very last test, with my uniform on.

yaaa. i was not a high school student anymore after it. my job being a secretary in my class is now over. the white and grey uniform will just folded tidy, kept in my wardrobe later on. moments of learning together in a class has end. it's time to get ready for another start.

high school is end, but why do it seems like i haven't realize yet?

14042011.

the very last day we go to school with our bags as a student. no more books in our mind, just pile of photographs, singing and sharing fill up that last day. it's not weird while tears drops

everywhere. i always think that i was abnormal when i didn't cry even just a drop of tears on that day. idk am i too insensitive or what? it's a big fault if i said my class got no sense of highschool. i'm not crying, cause deep inside i'm feeling lucky to have a very sweet highschool chapter with friends. that is the best study i ever know in this world. it's a bullshit if i didn't felt hard to leave this used to be. all the warm of hugs that day, has glimmered up my eyes. idk what should i do, trying to stop all the red eyes of my friends. i'm out of words. just could lend them a shoulder to cry on. the hardest i felt is an afraid whether when we've go through our own way, trapped in own busy, i can't get the warm when i'm drawn in friendship with buddies. stressed upon the exam, we had go through together for 3 years. lots of story, laugh and grief has become our story. together we learn to be mature. girls sharing till the boys scamp. not forgotten, the quarrel that ever happens. the different is what makes us close. that's the way how we build our friendship to become bold and stronger, to know each other well.

two

white and grey, the trending topic

Time's rolling apart and it has been 11 months since the last warm grief moments. Whatever lols and sobs, will be closed with tears. soon, It times waving goodbye to highschool. Everybody dreams and didn't find how to stop the time. Hard to have ending like this, to be apart and have our own start in different way. Afraid of being forgotten. Afraid of losing the memories. Afraid will be missing like hell all the togetherness we ever walk through. It has always been hard when we had to leave what we've used to be. What we've ever felt with buddies, when we're HOME.

Enjoy your last minutes peeps, Never regret when you still have the chance to create even just a column of story. The ending, has always been the sweetest.

at school we study and learn

in friendship we believe and grow